reading helter skelter

Saturday, May 26, 2007

well hullo everybody.



it has been far too long since i last checked in here to scribble a few lines about my entertainingly boring life.. feeling quite bored and sleepless now, so i thought ohwhattheheck and decided to come back here after a good span of,..... a good 3 months at least?? now THATS what i call a hiatus!



the rolling months have been absolutely dreadful, with school to go to and appointments to keep and promises to fulfill and tests to slaughter. the single only thing that has kept me going on since the start of this term was that the saving redemption of the june holidays were coming... and of course along with that the numerous random mini- holidays that pitted term 2.



so, as of where i last stopped blogging, many things have changed. shifted from vjc to acjc, although now, in hindsight, i AM kinda quite regretting that decision to be a smart ass and dictate what i thought was right at that time and just stay put in vj, and of course, i do miss vj alot. the class, the band. sigh. been blaming myself quite a bit lately for the depression all this episode had cause this few months. shouldn't have went to that party that day, shouldn't have called ---.. should have sucked it in and stick through the two years, should have listened closer to the yelling of my heart to stay put.. and on and on.. never a shortage of childing for myself. i still do not know if what i did was the right choice at all, i really don't.. but i'm certain that ac is not a bad school either. met many new people and i'm fine in school. and things went in ways that it would not have gone if i stayed in vj.. but whatever it is, i know that if it was the wrong choice, i'm paying the price for not listening to divine advice earlier this year. oh how i tend to make drastically wrong decisions that make my life difficult. take another example, changed from a band boy to a tracker and fencer. not very smart a decision, but it was governed by my want to try something new.. we shall see what that brings in time to come, but currently? all its bringing is sore muscles and bs and cs for tests. oh btw, i failed both my lit tests for the term.. how sad.



so yes, i went for the vjcsb concert yesterday, majestia xxii. it was not too bad, loved their spastacus. never knew it matured into a smashing good piece! btw, vjc got gold with honours for their syf and are playing in the presentation night.. hope to get tix. AND, great job guys for the concert and syf. so i was sitting there with aaron darren yirui and melly, and i was thinking to myself, damn, i could have been there playing.. i practiced this piece too, and ended up leaving. what followed was the pattern of thought simillar to the paragraph above.. but hey, least i got to see many familliar faces and say hi/ talk to people that i haven't seen in months.. mieo ting, christina, mark, eric, shushan, matthew etc etc... been too long. well, at least i've got the invitation now to come back more to say hi. you guys will be seeing more of me soon then. =) haha.. OH, and i said hi to lao shi too... she was happy to see me. and she missed me. AHAHAHAHA! =D



the concert ended at 10ish, and i was supposed to go to gabrina eden and jean's party at ariel's place. for one, i did not know who ariel was, and where her house was. haha.. they called me to bring friends, so i asked ian along, who couldn't make it cause his mom said no.. haha its fine dude! BUT, seeing that my parents were out, and i was too lazy to take a bus right up to the west, and i didn't have money for a cab, and the party consisted of people that i didn't even know! and that pak kee also couldn't make it cause his parent's said no, i went for supper with darren yirui aaron melly lima and her friend benjamin instead. haha..



went to the coffee club at siglap, where i had by DINNER, at 11ish mind you all, while they had their slices of sinful cheesecake and mudpies.. ok, so i did have myself a lovely cheesecake after dinner too, but hey lets face it. i'm skin and bones. haha. we caught up, talked about first 3 months, JLKF and his bloody gay antics, and laughed and laughed. right, actually aaron did most of the laughing.. or cackling if you might so call it that.. it was really fun. a great way to end my term i must say! kinda poetic i thought.. i started the term leaving a new beginning behind to trace back my roots, leaving behind my new "old" friends and band life in the process, and ended it with a reunion with old friends and the band again. it came full circle. kinda thematic. like LOST, which, was a spectacular season finale last thursday. can't wait for season 4. so yea, my term ended nicely and i got the invitations to come back more often again! =D yay i will i will lima! after that yirui and melly sent me home in their cab before headed homeward bound. thanks you two! and i walked home thereafter, a happier dude, who found his soul again that day, into the moonlight...



AND THUS, the holidays begin. one month of rest. one month of serious kick ass freak mugging. one month of play. one month of party. one month of friends. really hope i'll do well in the terms... gotta work towards that.. haven't really been walking alongside with God these few months i gotta admit.. plan to take this holidays to find myself again, and to come back to the right path.. i really hope he does his magic in me again these two years. its not so much about the proving that one can do well and yet still be able to play and be whacky, its more about the SELF KNOWLEDGE AND SATISFACTION that you've got BALANCE, and can be a really FUNKY NERD, while the rest settles for the latter of the capitalized words alone. yupp. thats my goals folks. the race is on.



joshua is back...
but sleepy.
cheers world.

post by joshua at 10:40 AM (x)

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